MW: 136.6
I suppose that's not as horrible as the 139.6 that I was a few days ago. I honestly don't know how I allowed myself to creep up this high again. About a week before we left for Hawaii, I just accepted the fact that I was going to be fat and stopped caring. I stopped being careful, stopped counting calories, stopped caring. I gained weight over Christmas last year and never went back down. Right before the company Christmas party I was 124.6... and over the period of the last several months my weight has gradually gotten up to where it is now.
I can't blame anyone by myself. And no one but me can fix it.
I don't want to focus too much on how much I weigh because I will only get discouraged. I have a series of rewards set up for each 2-lbs or so. My employer offered to pay for a gym membership for a brand-new Taj Mahal gym near the clinic where I work. They know that I go to the rec park to run after work and since the days are getting shorter they wanted to show appreciation. I'm thrilled!! The gym is gorgeous. Theres a pool, aromatherapy sauna, hundreds of cardio equipment and weight machines, free classes, and more. I'm stoked to start working out there! I now have two gym memberships. One near my house and one near my work. So there is absolutely no excuse to not workout.
One more thing, I'm ENGAGED!!! My bf popped the question in Hawaii. I'm absolutely over the moon. We picked a date too: October 31, 2015. So much fun to play around with a Halloween wedding!
So now my weight loss motivation is engagement pictures and dress fittings! I'm going to be in tons of pictures in the upcoming year so I need to keep focused.
I don't really have a plan for today which only leads to trouble... so I need to come up with one before I eat anything. I'm definitely going to go run. Back to the grind!
Stay strong, lovelies <3
EEEEE, CONGRATS! Pleeeease tell me you're going to have a Corpse Bride dress.
ReplyDeleteA free gym membership is nothing to sneeze at, especially one as fancy as that. I'm sorry to hear you're unsatisfied with your weight. All I can say is if you've done it before, you can do it again.
I know it sounds like hippy crystal-gripping nonsense, but I think focusing on where you want to be and how good it'll feel to get there helps keep you more motivated instead of worrying about the fact you're not there now. The power of positive thinking and all that
It's good to see an update from you :) Take care <3
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Congratulations! This is huge news I'm so excited for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry your not happy with your weight but i totally agree with bella the power of positive thinking can work wonders
Xx take care xX