All I had yesterday was a small salad, a bag of crackers, and a large coke zero at a football stadium. I had the option of getting cotton candy or a pretzel which is what I really wanted. Yum. A pretzel dipped in cheese or even just left alone in its buttery goodness, lol. And we did so much walking! I didn't log my day yesterday but it was definitely a good one.
There were so many cute outfits walking around campus yesterday. So many skinny sorority girls in their expensive, tiny clothes.
It's usually after lunch when things fall apart. 2-4 PM is when I'm most likely to start snacking. And it's always on something sweet. Speaking of which, we have some brownies, a tub of cookie dough, and that huge box of Halloween candy just tempting me. I was going to get some grapes but I saw all that stuff and just walked away from the fridge because I know it was going to trigger a binge. No grapes even. Better safe than sorry. I just keep thinking about how I'll feel after eating whatever is tempting me. Satisfied? Probably not. Guilty? Absolutely.
I've been looking into different medical insurance plans and much to my surprise, no one covers treatment for mental illness... eating disorders in particular. Not that I think I'll ever need to be hospitalized for it but it really shocked me that no one covers psychological issues.
My bf and I were able to take a shower together for the first time in weeks. (We live with his parents and they were gone). Anyway, he said that I've gotten so skinny that I look like a praying mantis. I laughed out loud and told him that he's crazy. I mean come on, my thighs still touch. I'm not that thin. It did make me laugh though.
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