Size 4

MW: 127.2
GW: 125 (matching my previous low weight!)

I found a cute pair of DKNY ox blood skinny jeans. I picked up a US size 6 (my normal size, UK 10) and a size 4 just for shits and giggles. I tried on the size 4 first... I couldn't believe that they fit! I didn't have to squeeze into them. They fit nicely. And the waist is a little big. I haven't been a size 4 since I was 13 years old. I woke up one morning and no longer fit into my little girl clothes. I went straight from the girls department to a size 4 literally overnight. I can't believe I'm a size 4 again. My size 6 clothes still fit quite nicely, they aren't baggy or anything. I wish I could take all the flesh from my hips and put it into my boobs. If only life worked like that...

I've been averaging 800-1200 calories. I aim for 750 and always go over. But even considering that I'm still losing weight. That's all that matters. Christmas time is coming. Which means my family is going to see me for the first time in a while. My grandmother and aunts are always hounding me about my weight. Thank goodness for baggy sweaters and scarves! And bulky Christmas jewelry. Anyone know of any good websites for Christmas gift ideas?

I volunteered to be on-call for emergencies at the clinic for Thanksgiving. The other doctors were thrilled that I took the holiday! The truth is that I really I don't want to have to choose between my family, my bf's family, and I CERTAINLY don't want to sit down to a day of bingeing. I love the family time but I always overdo it. REALLY overdo it. I mean eat all day, nonstop. Since I've proven that I have no control, I just won't participate this year. At least with Christmas there are other distractions. Parades, gifts, games, all that jazz. It's not a holiday centered solely around food.

So I posted my before and during pictures. The picture quality is awful, sorry about that. You can't tell a difference. I've had a few people who haven't seen me in a year say that I've gotten thin and that I should gain some weight. My excuse is programmed into my head, "I know, but I'm working so much!"  At work yesterday, I grabbed a bite of brownie and one of the receptionists said "Oh, just eat the whole piece. You're such a tiny little thing."  Can't say I didn't love that comment :-)