GW: 127 by April 19th
I don't have nothing new to update on. The definition of insanity is repeating the same behaviors over and over and expecting different results. I don't know why I even bother weighing myself anymore. I have zero control over sweets. Every morning I promise to wake up and "be good" and every afternoon I promise "only one bite". By dinner time I promise "tomorrow". This has been going on since Christmas really. Insanity.
My birthday is coming up in early June. Can I make it to my UGW by then?? It'll be the 9th anniversary of my ED so it's definitely fitting. If that's not motivation to stay away from cake I don't know what is!
I haven't been having time to exercise but I'm going to get a gym membership this weekend. I plan on exercising this weight off, especially since I can't seem to diet it off. I'm running a 10K next Saturday.
Tomorrow is going to be a big challenge. I'm home all day with my bf and his mother so they will constantly be pestering me about eating. And we just had a family birthday party so the cake in the fridge is going to constantly be on my mind. Every. Waking. Moment. Its going to be a difficult day. I hope I can just push through the temptations and avoid the binge. As soon as I indulge I'll be monster grumpy because I can't purge with so many people home. I really don't want to turn into that monster and ruin my day off with my bf.
Also, I really need to post my actual intakes more often.
B: amaretto coffee x 2, nonfat activia (197)
L: shrimp and corn soup, 2 slices wheat toast (302)
S: apple with 2tbsp powdered pb, fiber one brownie (195)
D: 1 1/4 cups dry cereal (195)
Multivitamin
Total: 889 kcal
"The definition of insanity is repeating the same behaviors over and over and expecting different results"
ReplyDeleteIsn't that EDs in a nutshell, though? If I engage in X behavior it will make me feel better. If I lose X lbs I will be happy with my body. If I only eat X today everything will be okay.
Ooh, happy birthday for early June! Mine's the end of April, eep. I think I've promised myself every year that I'll hit a new LW for my birthday, it never happens though. Usually my birthdays consist of getting high and making cake. I love baking big fancy cakes, so yeah, whoops.
Good luck with the gym membership. Sometimes a little exercise is all we need to help break the plateaus. With intakes like today's, you'll be back to 127 and below before you know it.
Take care lovely <3 xx