MW: 129.6! WTF?! I'll take it.
Thank you so much for the encouraging comments on my last blog!! I was just to sit down at lunch and start devouring all the candy and croissants that someone brought to the clinic but I read those sweet comments and it totally took the cravings away! After lunch is a huge trigger because I'm wanting something sweet and candy is the first thing that I reach for. I've even left work and driven to the gas station nearby to buy a bag of chocolates to eat all afternoon. That's usually when I stop logging calories for a few days and wonder why I'm not getting any thinner.
My second big trigger time is right when I get home from work. Particularly when I'm on-call and don't get home until after 10. I usually go straight for the cereal. That usually leads to a second bowl. Then I go for a spoonful of peanutbutter. Then when I've totally screwed up my day I reach for the chocolate bars. One innoent bowl of cereal usually leads to a 1000+ calorie addition to the day. After reading my Twin's blog today, I decided that if she can exercise all day with only a damn fruit cup... I don't need that bowl of cereal right now. I don't need that binge and all the guilt that comes with it. I eat to live, not live to eat. My bf is eating chocolates right now. I know that if I ate even just a bite of something I would dive into that bag of chocolates head first.
Overall today was a great day. 860 total intake and I managed to walk for an hour in between patients. July is turning out quite alright.
Tomorrow my clinic is doing a huge firework show and bbq as an early 4th of July celebration. It's not going to be easy avoiding all that food especially with my coworkers and bf there! I'll try to squeeze a run in at lunchtime thn take the bbq one step at a time.
Stay Strong loves! <3
did you genuinely lose a tad more than 3lbs in one day
ReplyDeletethat's astounding isn't it
"That's usually when I stop logging calories for a few days and wonder why I'm not getting any thinner." i feel you.
interestingly enough, trigger times are usually between when i finished what i have planned for myself. i seldom think of anything else if i have something planned. le sigh. oh, and there's always too much thinking. 'you are in recovery. where are you not eating as much as someone that is in recovery?' and whatnot.
July is the year is it not?
go with net for the 4th xx just as a thought.
take care, darling.
comment reply to the comment you made on my blog:
"Bloody nutella!! Every jar of it is cursed. Every spoonful that I have allowed myself has inevitably led to a binge that has ruined that whole day's intake." i have had enough yesterday to not want a jar for a long time. whatever that may be.
"Any type of nut butter. Peanut butter. Almond butter. It's all evil." almond butter is alright, but i understand the turmoils of peanut butter. so good. so fattening.
take care, darling xx
-Sam Lupin