Not so good today

CW: 139

I purged today. Not because I binged or even because I ate too much. I just needed that "release". Anyone who has ever been bulimic for a period of time knows what I mean. I'm under an incredible amount of stress right now. It just builds and builds and I had to do something to get rid of some of the anxiety. All I had was 1 1/2 cups of dry cereal and a few hard candies. I certainly wasn't full nor did I feel guilty about the calories. I just had to deal with the anxiety.

Needless today, I'm a lot calmer right now.

I promise you girls that I'm going to start getting hard core about counting calories. This approximating bullshit is the reason I've continued to plateau every two or so pounds. It doesn't seem to matter how much I exercise. The only way to lose weight is to restrict.

Stay strong lovelies xx