GW: 127 by Saturday
I can't believe how quickly the time has gone! I've been diet blogging for the length of my ED (8 years). Even back to when xanga was the big thing! But I've shut down my two older blogs because they were discovered by friends/family. I'm not really paranoid that someone will find this one. That's why I was able to post a pic of me at Christmas time. I'm 27 years old now and no one cares. My friends all have children now and have better things to do. I do keep it secret still. Even my bf doesn't know about it.
To celebrate I'll tell you lovely ladies a little more about myself. I'm a veterinarian. This was always my dream and after 8 years of school and hard work, I'm finally living it. My bf is also a veterinarian. We've been dating for 6 years this February. We live with his parents. It was supposed to be a temporary thing but I would hardly call 7 months with no end in the immediate future
"temporary". I get along well with his dad but can't stand his mom. She's the most aggressive, judgmental, hostile, and hypocritical person I've ever met. Makes my life as difficult as she can. I'm not her favorite person, which she lets me know. But it's cool, because I hate her guts too.
Today has been pretty good. Total intake will be around 980 but I ran for an hour so -567. I'm always craving sweet so I bought a chocolate bar thats 78% cocoa. Having 4 squares of that to look forward to after dinner may help keep my sweet tooth in check. I'll let you know how that goes! Also, I bought the powdered peanut butter thats 45 kcal for 2 tbsp. It's not bad on its own really. And with an apple I can't taste a difference! Definitely something that will be a staple in my diet to keep those peanutbutter cravings at bay. What are some things that you do to stay in control?
"I'm 27 years old now and no one cares." i love you i actually love you
ReplyDeletei read that as vegetarian instead of veterinarian and i'm just like "wait, no, you ate chicken once" and then i read it right and wow bed time soon for Sam
i cringe at the thought of 78% cocoa
i think most that i can stand is about 40% and anything above that is just tasteless and sickening (for me)
stay in control? me? i am never in control.
awwww that picture with one bad meal won't make me fat because one good meal won't make me skinny. i want to laugh. no. no. no. that just makes me think that i can eat whatever it is i want because i'm good most of the time. :P
-Sam Lupin
PS. that girl's legs is fabby.
Holy wow, that's a long time to've been blogging. I've been blogging on-and-off for maybe 6-7 years, but this is my first ED/mental health focused blog. Probably half the people I've ever met in my hometown have found my blog, but it's not that big a problem for me. I once made a post following the death of the local 'anorexic twins', who often made the news, and I got a ridiculous amount of hits from people googling them in the weeks following their death. Didn't think about people googling them, oops.
ReplyDeleteYour boyfriend's also a vet?! That is really cool. My ex also 'temporarily' moved in with my family while we were trying to find a place together, never happened and he lived here nearly 18 months up until we broke up.
Moderated amounts of chocolate, or any treats really, definitely help with cravings. That's probably how I keep cravings away; by occasionally having small amounts of what I'm craving. How boring.
xx
I allow myself small treats like a fat free cappuccino once a week =) it helps me keep from indulging on absolute crap the rest of the time. Also, loads of delicious tea/coffee and water.
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