MW: 126.8
GW: 125
I'm on-call this weekend, so I've been at the clinic instead of home. It's nice not to have to worry about eating around people. Not to have to defend my lunch or dinner. I can just eat and get on with life, haha! Its easy when I can just bury myself into work and not worry about food, calories, or people.
Add me on My Fitness Pal. If I have a few people to answer to, I'll be more careful about what I eat. My biggest goal right now is working on my sugar intake. I have been averaging 60g a day! It's not something I ever thought to cut back on but I've been doing research on diets high in sugar... the obvious one is diabetes. High blood sugar leads to hypertension. Neoplastic (cancer) cells absolutely thrive on diets high in sugar! All those zero-calorie sweeteners are even worse. I gave up splenda about two years ago. I haven't had a diet drink in over a week!
I had a small chat with my bf's mom this morning. We always get together on Sunday mornings so she can plan out all the meals. We get around to me and she says "So what do you want this week, besides salad because no one else wants that." I wish I made it home in time to start cooking dinner most nights. That way I could just cook healthy for everyone. I'm usually in charge of one meal a week and it's usually a dish loaded with veggies. Her menu this week is cheesy chicken enchiladas, roast and rice, pasta with meatsauce, and some cheesy rice dish. EVERYTHING FATTENING, cheese and cream added... same old story. She's sick of me always choosing a salad over whatever she cooks but I'm sick of her trying to force-feed me crap. Every mealtime is a struggle. Everything is a struggle with her.
Thank you girls for the sweet replies to my last post. I don't know what I plan on doing about seeing a therapist. Or if my insurance will even cover that. I know it doesn't cover the treatment of eating disorders. I can't keep things bottled up forever. I can't resort to unhealthy measures to cope anymore either. Blogging really helps. I don't want to keep nagging my bf about his control-freak mother. I despise every fiber of her being. It helps to let it out on here.
Todays intake
Coffee- 95
Eggdrop soup- 120
Salad- 250
Apple- 80
Tea with honey- 60
It's always nice to get a break from eating around people. It's kinda cool that you guys plan your meals each week... I've never been so organized when I eat family dinners. Her menu does sound pretty scary. I like stir-fries for family meals, it's a good balance between what I'll eat and what my family will eat.
ReplyDeleteMaybe ask your doctor what your options are, in terms of someone to talk to. They'll be the best person to point you in the right direction. Until then, feel free to ramble here as much as you need. I'll always listen/read even if I can't be of much help.
Take care dear. I hope you have a lovely week <3 xx
Wait, so eating less sugar decreases your chances of getting cancer? o_O
ReplyDeleteomg dude - i can't bin Splenda and i definitely can't throw away the Diet Pepsi.
ReplyDeletethat lady pushes on my buttons. ugh. i swear. she sounds a lot like my Mother, let me tell you. yesterday, my Mother cornered me and asked me what i had for breakfast. i asked her "which one" - considering i have had bloody two breakfasts by that point. i bet she suspects i'm lying about eating, which pisses me off because i actually do eat! fuck all!
*sigh*
what can we do but tolerate xxx
-Sam Lupin