Yep, it's the weekly "I promise to do better this week" post
Changes have to be made. Not just about dieting and losing weight, but trying to be healthier in general. My last post spoke a little about how my diet is way too high in sugar. I can't really say I've been doing better with that since the start of the new year. I'll do good for a day then just lose my mind and binge. The bulimic mentality comes back occasionally. Only, I don't get to purge anymore because our tiny house has four adults in it at all times. That in combination with everyone's growing suspicions is a recipe for disaster. Walking on eggshells these days. So I end up bingeing, not purging, and living with the intense guilt of the calories festering in my body.
I hate feeling full and bloated. I even hate feeling satiated. It's a sign that I've lost control again. That I live to eat instead of eating to live. I can't even post the weight I saw last night after dinner. I was so disgusted that I wanted to cut it all off. This morning was 130.4. I can't believe I've binged my way back into the 130's. Completely unacceptable and a total wake-up-call.
I'm taking a little different approach to this week. Here are my goals:
1. No sweets. At all. For the next 7 days I've got to get this sweet tooth under control.
2. No diet drinks. (I've been doing really well with this one!)
3. Blog whenever temptation becomes too much. Even if it's only a few sentences with my mobile.
4. Limit processed foods and preservatives. I've even started making my own salad dressing!
5. Drink more water. Since I've cut out the diet drinks this is getting easier.
6. Run 3 times this week. I've been so busy with work I haven't been keeping up with exercising.
It's got to get better from here.
Things will get better <3
ReplyDeleteWe all have bad weeks. I'm sorry you're feeling so awful, but things will get better. Good luck with your goals for this week. I went through a phase of making my own Caesar dressing using low-fat mayo as a base (still very processed, but not as much as the dressing) with skim buttermilk and adding my own herbs and spices, though these days I'm back to being lazy.
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awwwwww.
ReplyDeletei'm in the same boat as you. i'm close to somewhere where i told myself i didn't want to be. cries.
you're insane. i swear.
i wouldn't be able to keep up with any of those!
good luck, sweetie. we can do this.
-Sam Lupin