Sunday

MW: 135

GW1: 131 by 4/27

It's Sunday. I love Sundays. Sunday mornings are always a fresh start. My stomach is empty and my head is full of optimism.

Even though I've been exercising for 1 1/2 hours daily, my weight has maintained at 135 for the past week. How incredibly frustrating! Obviously I'm not doing a good enough job counting calories. I'm sitting here sipping my coffee with exactly 30 mls milk and 1 level teaspoon of sugar. Everything that I eat is going to be precisely measured and logged. 

I know the biggest issue is not accounting for bingeing/purging. There is no way of accounting for calories left in. I was at my thinnest (125) when I wasn't purging. In fact, when I started purging I gained every single pound back up to my highest weight. This is a warning ladies!! I see so many girls on here wishing they could purge. It gives you a split second of relief but you don't lose weight. I don't want to purge any more! 

I'm going to focus on taking care of my body this week. No purging. Restricted calories. Multi-vitamins. Loads of exercise. 

I went to a friend's house last night and was watching her cook. She fried tortillas in oil, slathered them in sour cream sauce, filled them with olives, chicken, and two types of full-fat cheese, then added more cheese on top and baked them. OH MY FUCKING GOD. If you're going to bake enchiladas why in the fuck would you fry the tortillas first?! You are just adding hundreds of unnecessary calories! I was mortified! Luckily I brought my dog and I fed him most of it when no one was looking. Holy shit people wonder why they are the size that they are. Rant over, haha!

My bf is home today. 

B: coffee, milk, sugar (69) 

     nonfat greek yogurt (120)

L: green salad, chicken, light vinaigrette (271)

S: green tea, sugar (18)

D: turkey sandwich on light bread (260)
S: brownie (250)

Total= 988 cals

Exercise: 30 minutes elliptical (-310)
                  30 minutes treadmill (-182)
                  2 hours yardwork (-250)