Motivation

MW: 134 fucking pounds

Lost my shit and binged like there was no tomorrow on Easter.

I felt so disgusting yesterday morning. So much so, that I decided to start counting every single calorie again. No more of that estimating bullshit. I'm only fooling myself by estimating. I have the "Shapeup" app on my mobile so I'll be tracking everything I eat on that.

I do have new motivation to get skinny for the summer! First of all, my boyfriend's sister is getting married in August. She's the most beautiful girl on this planet... total barbie doll. Thin and perfect. I can't be as pretty as her but I can be thinner. I know we'll be taking loads of pictures at the wedding so I need to be THIN!

Another motivator is a summer holiday planned at the end of July! We rented a beach house with my boyfriends' family. There will be loads of pictures taken of that too, most of which I will be in a swimsuit for! I have to be the skinniest I've ever been for that trip. I want them all to notice how skinny and boney I am. I want to tone up my legs and stomach so I don' t have to be self-conscience in my swimming suit.

Here are my goals:

GW1: 131 by April 6
GW2: 127 by April 20
GW3: 123 by May 11 (New low)
GW4: 119 by May 25
GW5: 117 by June 1
UGW: 115 by June 15

Three months to lost 19 lbs. I'm so ready to be thin... I have to keep telling myself that I don't want chocolate or fatty foods. I want thin more than anything and it's only going to take three more months to get there. I'm guessing that I'm going to plateau eventually so I'm going to try and stay motivated. In all reality its probably going to be the end of June or start of July when I actually hit 115.

Intake: Planned- Under 900!!
Exercise: Planned- Run