MW: 135 (133 after my run)
GW: 129
Fuck.
I really fucked up the past two days. I made lemon squares because my bf wanted them and I just kept eating and eating. Before I knew it half of the tray was gone. Absolutely disgusted with myself. How do I lose all self control over sweets? I'm really bloated... ugh. It's going to take me days to work off those calories. I wasn't even hungry yesterday but I kept shoveling food in completely out of control. The bright side is that my bf saw how much I was eating when he was home so he won't be suspicious at least not for a few weeks.
Alright, shake it off! Regroup. Ready, set, go!
I was going to liquid fast for the next few days but my bf will be home for dinner tonight. I'm going to make a low-fat potato and broccoli soup. Maybe I'll liquid fast over the weekend? Went for a run which always gets my spirits up! It's really pretty outside today!
Now to talk about non-diet stuff. I blogged a few weeks ago about my bf's sister (L) getting married and how I want to be thin for the wedding. Turns out we aren't going to go at all. The groom is half black and my bf's mother is crazy racist. (Actually, just CRAZY.) She has hated the relationship from day one even though this guy is a really good guy. She's even threatened to leave her husband if he attends the wedding! Can you believe that?! So now L won't even have her dad walk her down the aisle. My bf was counting on his parents for a plane ticket to get to the wedding and that's not going to happen. So now he can't even be a groomsman. The whole situation is completely fucked up. I can't believe how his mother is making everyone choose. She's already said that she's never speaking to L ever again. She's been praying that God will break up their relationship. How fucked up is that?! If you're going to pray about the situation pray that God changes your racist heart!
So yeah, people like that still exist.
We are moving back home soon and our only option may be to move in with my bf's parents. I really don't want to be under the same roof as her. Especially when she comments on everything I do and don't eat. (She's a nurse). I'm gonna lose my shit for sure. :-(
Intake:
coffee w/ sugar (54)
chai tea w/ 2% milk and sugar (31)
homemade potato soup (450?)
turkey bacon (100)
a few almonds (100)
Total: 735 kcal
Exercise:
Run 5 miles (-500)
Wow that whole wedding situation sounds really bad. I've known racist people but not to that extent. She sounds like an especially hard person to get along with and I know the type perfectly. I've been gaining weight the past two days myself, although I am sure it is not as bad as it seems for both of us. If you think about it, you could have a sudden moment of motivation tomorrow and lose several pounds in a few days. Anything can happen when you put your mind to it. Good luck and keep up the good work.
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Sorry you are going through this. You don't deserve it.
ReplyDeleteIt saddens me that people act that way toward others. We are all still human.
And she is a nurse!!? how on earth does she treat her black patients?? the nursing field is the wrong place to be for a racist. I worry about peoples family members around her.
This food situation is a bit out of control. I need to get back on track and stop the bullshit I am currently doing.
Hang in there, babe.