GW: 127
Well, my original goal for tomorrow was 125. I started a new job which I'm thrilled about. I'm on my feet all day but used that as an excuse to eat much more than I should have. The damage is clear: I'm not at my goal. I haven't gained despite all the shit I've been eating. But I'm still 5 lbs away from the place I needed to be. I've been eating absolute crap. Just snacking all day instead of proper meals. I've been in complete denial about how many calories that have been allowed to pass my lips. It's no wonder why I plateau after a pound or two.
I want to be thin so badly. Obviously don't want it badly enough if I can't control myself.
June 1 marks a new beginning. I have a bar-b-q to go to which I'm pretty excited about. There's going to be about 70 people there! I'm only allowing myself copious amounts of diet coke and a few bites of food. Only 500 cals max which I'll log into my phone before I eat it. Maybe a beer. Maybe a lot of beer, lol. There should be enough people there to socialize instead of eat. Luckily it's a bar-b-q so there be shit tons of red meat. No thank you.
I know I sound like a broken record but tomorrow is a new beginning. No more excuses. I don't want to be out of control around food. I want food to lose it's power. I want to be thin more than I want cookies or fatty food.
You can do it, honestly.
ReplyDeleteOnce you reach that goal you will feel this amazing sense of accomplishment, especially since you only have 5 more pounds to go! Once you reach it, maybe another 5 pounds just to keep you in shape and motivated. It really can be done because I've gotten there before, you just need to have self control and lots of patience and dedication (: